carpe diem...

cuckoo log:

meds: 25 mg. seroquel
physical activity: minimal... did do some ice skating
mental musings: another day, another dime...

Carpe diem… To some that means “seize the day”… to me it means… life is a series of moments… every moment means something… and look to them as a means of optimizing your TPO… your time place and opportunity.

What does all this rambling mean? Well, this morning I was speaking of how boring and controlled my life is… and well, the response is… actually I enjoy being who I am… Does anyone feel controlled by the fact that other parties are “paying your way”??? Does it ever feel like your parents or “loved ones” are controlling you by telling you what you can and can’t do because they are “paying for you”… well, there is a fun little anecdote I have for this…

My day yesterday involved about 4 hours of being at a very lovely ice skating rink… at the rink, I met, the “big red hen”… I forget people’s names, and create a nickname… it’s just the kind of person that I am… so I was talking to the “big red hen”, and she was saying a lot of great stuff regarding being a mother, and being in control of her kid’s daily life decisions. She mentioned that she pays for her son’s tuition at college, and due to privacy rules… that she wasn’t able to access or see her son’s report card. I think that is a lovely problem of success… People who are successful, are used to getting their way… People who are failures are used to being stepped on… is that fair? I don’t think anything is fair… that’s why I just do mental diarrhea in this space to avoid from getting belligerent to my fellow men and women of society.

Who is paying for the fulfillment of your dreams? If you say you are paying all by your lonesome, I contend that you are a liar and a pirate… With that, I wore a pirate hat the other day… it was almost funny to tell folks that I am a pirate and they are too… Why is it that wealth is not perceived as a zero sum game… If I earn something, I am taking away from somebody else… isn’t that an obvious notion with anything that is limited? We are destroying or planet slowly but surely in the name of development and comfort… We are changing the way people think because and through the advent of technology and sophisticated communication tools.

What is getting in the way of having a meaningful conversation with a perfectly nice stranger? It is about not being beneficial to each other… why is everyone looking for “what do you bring to the table”… I have a definitive answer to that notion… everyone is a warm body, and if you were stranded on a desert island… I would have lots of dumb stories to keep the inhabitants of the island smiling or p***ed off… remember the notion of story telling is losing its brilliance because nobody in modern society has a “real” attention span… if you don’t shock somebody in the first 10 seconds, they will leave you alone… bottom line… The worst punishment for a megalomaniac like me is to “ignore” me…