you know, two days ago... seems so short... will have to meet this thought a bit later...
right now, it's 5:00 am, and the birds are chirping and the world is starting to wake up... i love the tranquility and peace at this time of day. i will probably be heading to the gym soon. i have come to the realization that i have missed being healthy and active...
so let me talk about the events of two days ago, before they leave my consciousness... i was in fort lee, nj, looking for a job... i had a few great conversations with a few different sort of people. one of them was a 50+ caucasian female. i continued to share details of my life and she did hers. she was a retiree of amc movie theater working most of her career as a cashier, and finally retiring as head cashier. she has a simple but wonderful life alone. she works two jobs and makes time pass. she enjoys her solitude at home and seemed like a sincere and kind person. the fun/stress started when i made a passing comment... totally intended to be a joke, but ill perceived on the listener's part...
the comment was something to the tune of, "if i don't find a job, to get out of my house, i will k*$l my wife"...
i put that statement all by itself, because it almost seems bad... but doing funny, with not so funny consequences is the point of my story here... i left the building and was followed to the at&t store... some police officer walked up to me and asked me, if this was my car... i said yes, (thinking that he wanted to buy it, or was admiring it from afar)... at any rate, 3 police vehicles converge, and i'm asked a barrage of questions... the only question i didn't want to answer was, what my social security number was... (what does that do with anything criminal?) where i am coming from, what i'm doing and the like. they never got offensive, they never got rough, (thank god that i'm not black)... the long and the short of this story is that cops have a tendency to over-react... they made a simple "joke" into something hugely time consuming... they rushed 3 police officers to my daughter's school where my wife was acting as class mother, at the year end picnic...
the officers asked my wife if i ever had violent tendencies, or if she felt in danger with me... in all honesty world, i'm not the violent type or even the aggressive sort... what it means to me to be a threat to anything or anybody is... i'm a threat to food... i'll hurt that big mac and make it disappear. as the people who personally know me, already might know, i've been married for about 10 years now, and have 2 wonderful little people to take care of... being violent and being silly is not my idea of being a respectful or good role model. why do most adults in this world forget that the most important thing is to leave this world just a bit better than we found it...
all in all, this story will become very long winded and i was given an option to be detained in fort lee, in which a medical professional would come by and examine me, or if i would go to a hospital. i decided that going to the hospital would be faster. boy, i was wrong... being cooped up at holy name hospital for 3-4 hours was seriously an ordeal. the only persons who really worked at anything was the discharge nurse, and the physician's assistant, and the various security guards that i chatted with. everyone else that i encountered was a total mess. into their own thing, and not helping at all... the brown lady, indian, pakistani, or the like... who drew my blood didn't pay attention to me... she said i felt a big vein here... well, there is no way to tell you this more bluntly... if i tell you not to draw blood from my arm... why do you insist on doing so?
why is it that starbucks work thoughts and work flows cannot be used at a hospital emergency room? i don't get it... since i came in, when people change shifts, i had to do two psych evals and people who say sorry, when they have no heart in their words... fake people are hurting society much more than honest, sincere people ever will. why be a nurse if you don't care? why be a healthcare worker if you think you are better/smarter or more able than your patient's experience? i would say most of these females in the e.r. chose their profession because they are in it for monetary gains or the benefits packages which come with their employment. world... please love what you do, and do and live your life with passion. there is too much just gotta' get it done in this world going around. the one good take away, which i already knew is that i am hypertensive. hyper people should be hyper tensive... what a freakin' genius' conclusion! empathy is lacking in the hospital... empathy is lacking in the real world society... change it, or ignore it... i rather change it thank you very much...
all the best,
jk
johnny... this could only happen to you.
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