sad, silly, marvelous...

good morning world,

it seems that the head creative at garden state plaza has put me on an infinite hold from being a 'student' at the garden state plaza. i have a 'one to one' registration, that i highly recommend people look into. interestingly, i asked for a reason... interestingly, i asked for it in writing... to that, i have to wait.
the scenario:

1. tall(er) white guy, (i am 5'6", so that's almost any white guy) comes up to me and introduces himself. you know... this is not the first time for me to be reprimanded by a 'manager/owner'. i always say, if you talk loud enough, you will be heard... that's the case in this situation... you jokingly (she didn't think it was a joke) call a female a 'female dog', and you call another one indirectly 'f*t', it might get you in trouble. it is sort of a random occurence to get 'flagged' for inappropriate behavior. it is fun nonetheless. the only inconvenience found is that i have to go to the city. quite actually, and simply, a fun journey into the city usually follows, so it's a blessing in disguise. but even though those two perceptions were correct to me at the time, it's a bit sad, that they welcome me to shop there, simply not to learn there. big business, and all its wonder. lovely... looked up ron johnson's email address for apple. not that lucky.

picked up my son, (he's on spring break)
2. went to the gym, and blew off some steam. that was cool. retrofitness hackensack... holla'... i met up with a former sb barista, code named 'pokemon'... he's doing well... will have to share more about him at a later time. in addition, what can i say? met a couple muscle bound dudes, whom were totally not 'stereotypical', so i must say that most of my stereotypes are wrong, but the 30 percent that are correct... are embarrassingly on target.

3. spent some quality at the sprint store on 71ish and b'way. those are my peeps over there. they are totally into fixing problems, and joking around. what a wonderful mix of characteristics... why does work have to be so forced?

4. another afternoon at the uws apple store, my son loves that place. we should get a cot, and just hang... the audio system, the dull but incredibly loud murmur of this place. quite amazing... you can honestly lose yourself in this space. live music from a julliard ensemble, instructional/tutorial programs daily, if not more often... some really groovy folks over here. infinitely a 'cooler' spot than my former gsp digs, but nonetheless... corporate america and it's breathren unite... the evil monster of big business lives strong amonst us...

5. dinner at one of my usual turkish spots. anderson diner, in cliffside park... good stuff. eat til you can't walk yummy...

i'm out folks, it's been real, it's been cathartic... be well, and lovin' it...

ymjk

thinking too much...

dear world,

i just deep sixed the hell out of my first live monologue... it is so different than reacting... creating is the essence of fun, and funny...

1. got to suck to be loved...

2. got to be loved... to be sucked...

not knowing how to react to 'normal' people... is that a problem? charisma and bluntness don't go together very well... why is it that there are such things as beautiful funny people...

innuendo...

preparation...

what is the problem with eavesdropping?

i cannot speak and make sense to everyone... just have to pick and choose carefully.

old friend

hello world,

my wife has a great saying... if i don't know him/her... they are not your friends. i really like the way that sounds. sort of harsh, but it resonates the truth. i have an informal rule... friendship takes at least 10 years to nurture. it seems that sometimes you can be friends in a very short time, but the reality is without trials and tribulations... friendships and relationships which are not tested... cannot be proven to be strong or worthy.

how many of you know that i am 'crazy'? i am having a very hard time turning off my brain... i am wondering what set this emotion off? is it the coffee??? is it the high iq that i'm purported to have? is it some strange bizarre gravitational pull that the aligned stars have altered? i don't get it sometimes, but all of these thoughts are too much. frankie goes to hollywood said it best... "relax"... you know my old friend and i spent a few hours together, and had a more than enjoyable time together. we went through an interrogation together, by my father, and those are the moments that are truly quite unique in my heritage/culture.

respect for the oldest person in a room is quite strong... it's a great and strong emotion when used for good. when it is abused... it can be quite ugly.

let me go to the gym for now...
all the best,
ymjk

living with excess

dear world,
i have so many emotions regarding what is going on in this society and world that we live in:
1. the wildest/strangest thing i heard this past week was a young female hispanic rep. from the nation of islam talk about an earthquake machine...
2. fat albert aka h-lover... is late for work almost every day... interestingly enough, so am i.
3. i am committed to trying to keep myself away from going to 'work'. i must love what i do, and am committed to thinking of it as my passion and not as of work.
4. my former co-worker has gotten very skinny as of late, and unfortunately that to a lot of people means that she is sick... sucks to be fat... sucks even more, to try and get healthy and be called sickly.
5. taking care, and talking to the tenants of my domain... what a riot...
6. i imagine that life is going to be a bed of roses, and challenges. world, i have to focus on the problems we want to solve and the world that we want...
7. met a dude who is living in china... he's super cool. he created a foster home for chinese youth. AMAZING STORY. IMPACTFUL LIVING... want details?
http://www.agapeflh.org
first and foremost... i wonder if everyone knows what agape is:

Agape is one of the Greek words translated into English as love, one which became particularly appropriated in American Christian theology as the love of God or Christ for mankind (pronounced /ˈæɡəpiː/[1] and sometimes /əˈɡɑːpeɪ/ after the Classical Greek agápē; Modern Greek: αγάπη [aˈɣapi]). Many have thought that this word represents divine, unconditional, self-sacrificing, active, volitional, and thoughtful love.

i am in tears... i should share with you another time... please look around, share your gifts, and your desire to make things better. you must take the tour of the agape house. i love it, and love love... does that make sense?

all the best,
ymjk

random thoughts...

profiling people for fun:

1. some old man sits next to my daughter at my neighborhood starbucks... i'm totally more than happy to share my daughter's smiles with anyone. he's a typical grand dad and totally positive and smiley. we trade personal details, and i expected not to really like this person. it's awfully sad to think that prejudice is one of the biggest obstacles to meeting wonderfully new people, and having new adventures in life.

2. my dad is my hero and role model. but let me say simply being human, is really sobering.

3. my son is getting detention today for being violent and kicking a little girl in her class in the shin. i think she likes him, and he doesn't like her. sux to be little girl.

4. i have been practicing my rock paper shoot skills lately. i've built up a mental worksheet in my mind. my daughter is happy to help me win, because she usually shows her scissors... don't tell her i told you this...

5. my wife went to a very typical fund raising dinner. over pay for nominally edible food. she brought back some left overs... the fun thing is that as long as i am hungry, i'll eat almost anything. tpo, time, place and occasion.

6. met up with an old childhood friend. his mom is in failing health. i am sympathetic to his family. grand ma has lived a 101 years. sort of poetic and divine intervention. bless those who live good, honest, hard lives.

7. i need some sugar.

all the best to you and yours,
ymjk