Cuckoo Log:
Meds: O.D.’ed… yesterday had ms. AK in a vicious rage, and she insisted on me taking the entire stash of seroquel xr that I had. It was a truly amazing feeling to take 200 mg., and try to stay up… Tour d’ Force…
Top 11 thoughts of the day:
1. Had a breakfast chat with an old high school friend. He is a Harvard alumnus. He is totally chill, and honest to a fault. I just wonder sometimes what life is like when you create this false sense of “success”… Harvard and all… shouldn’t he be the president of some lesser known country by now?
2. When I talk to an old friend from my college days… I wonder why in heavens name is he living in the UK? His answer… healthcare for his children…
3. Why do I love women who scream? My mom was a screamer… It’s nice to be in a familiar space as an adult.
4. Not to judge people is one of my new year’s resolutions.
5. Typing with my eyes closed… I feel so much more energy and mental capacity in use…
6. The times I spend alone, are some of the most rewarding times now. I used to avoid being alone at all times… for those were the times I was most destructive.
7. A squirrel is capable of changing your lifestyle.
8. Many, Great, Wonderful… these words should be used only for special occasions.
9. Take your foot of the gas pedal. Give CONTROL to somebody, something else… Use the FORCE…
10. Make me happy, make me sad… but please oh please… don’t ignore me…
11. It is the small things that make a big difference… My new cordless keyboard for example, has just changed the way I think of fatigue and typing in general…
Friday, December 31, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
I will give you my teeth when I grow up...
Parents have problems... Children have problems... The fun thing about life is that we are always trying to figure out somebody else's issues.
1. My son is often asked, what he wants to be when he grows up... His answer yesterday was... "I want to be a dentist, to fix mommy's teeth". "I will take my teeth and give them to mommy". AND, I want to be an allergist... I'm going to fix Daddy's allergy to cats...
2. My daughter I believe still wants to be either a rocker, a dancer, or an allergist... Trivial but fun.
3. I wanted to be "Captain America"... (age 6, yet the dream holds eternally)
4. My wife wanted to be a pre-school teacher in Japan. (the USA children are too rambunctious for her taste).
5. My father wanted to be an inventor...
All in all... Dreams are the framework for life.
Life long and prosper...
Keep dreaming!
ymjk
1. My son is often asked, what he wants to be when he grows up... His answer yesterday was... "I want to be a dentist, to fix mommy's teeth". "I will take my teeth and give them to mommy". AND, I want to be an allergist... I'm going to fix Daddy's allergy to cats...
2. My daughter I believe still wants to be either a rocker, a dancer, or an allergist... Trivial but fun.
3. I wanted to be "Captain America"... (age 6, yet the dream holds eternally)
4. My wife wanted to be a pre-school teacher in Japan. (the USA children are too rambunctious for her taste).
5. My father wanted to be an inventor...
All in all... Dreams are the framework for life.
Life long and prosper...
Keep dreaming!
ymjk
hey dude... what are you thinking?
December 20, 2010:
It’s Christmas time:
To those who care…
Rules of the day:
1. Good/real relationships are worth much more than gold
2. The value of Christmas is about giving of yourself (your time and energy). No gift is worth more than your presence.
3. Kids don’t want expensive things. They want to camp in any space they are. My son spent a night sleeping on his “Transformers” inflatable mattress and loved it.
4. I am a S!@r$%^&s-aholic. You know why? Because they are coffee geeks. Be a geek and be proud of anything that you are proud of.
5. My pastor at my church is one really cool cat… He is Mr. MN. He has made some really creative Christmas cards in his life… (that’s what his pastor dad requests for Christmas).
6. I was born to share. I don’t know what it means to be “normal”… To me not responding to my “Good Morning” is a serious party foul, but only half the people who I say “Good Morning”.
7. I am wearing a red red fleece. It represents NJ’s state school… Rutgers… To me it represents… “REALLY”??? How can so many people be so proud of their school, and not even clean their car up… AKA, I have a really messy car…
8. Getting what I want has always been too straight forward… (calling people up and paying them). Make your PnP, (Pursuit and Passion) as complicated and difficult as you humanly can.
9. Being a megalomaniac is par for the course, and my biggest blessing and curse. Don’t expect to be cool if you can’t think you’re the center of the world…
10. Children are the fun/mission of my life. I’m on this planet to make their lives a little bit better.
11. 11 is prime! If you forgot what a prime number is… look it up!
be well, stay cozy,
ymjk
It’s Christmas time:
To those who care…
Rules of the day:
1. Good/real relationships are worth much more than gold
2. The value of Christmas is about giving of yourself (your time and energy). No gift is worth more than your presence.
3. Kids don’t want expensive things. They want to camp in any space they are. My son spent a night sleeping on his “Transformers” inflatable mattress and loved it.
4. I am a S!@r$%^&s-aholic. You know why? Because they are coffee geeks. Be a geek and be proud of anything that you are proud of.
5. My pastor at my church is one really cool cat… He is Mr. MN. He has made some really creative Christmas cards in his life… (that’s what his pastor dad requests for Christmas).
6. I was born to share. I don’t know what it means to be “normal”… To me not responding to my “Good Morning” is a serious party foul, but only half the people who I say “Good Morning”.
7. I am wearing a red red fleece. It represents NJ’s state school… Rutgers… To me it represents… “REALLY”??? How can so many people be so proud of their school, and not even clean their car up… AKA, I have a really messy car…
8. Getting what I want has always been too straight forward… (calling people up and paying them). Make your PnP, (Pursuit and Passion) as complicated and difficult as you humanly can.
9. Being a megalomaniac is par for the course, and my biggest blessing and curse. Don’t expect to be cool if you can’t think you’re the center of the world…
10. Children are the fun/mission of my life. I’m on this planet to make their lives a little bit better.
11. 11 is prime! If you forgot what a prime number is… look it up!
be well, stay cozy,
ymjk
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Sunday AM thoughts...
December 19, 2010:
Cuckoo log:
Meds: none
Physical activity: does shopping count?
Thoughts: calm…
Let me say this people… I am watching a preview for a movie called, “How do you know”, starring Reese Witherspoon. She is a great southern gal. I’m a great southern guy… What the heck does that suppose to mean? It’s like this…
1. I spent the better part of 7 years in Atlanta, GA.
2. I am a fan… a fan of people… almost all people
3. Losing an icon, (he is retired now), like Larry King… it is a point of departure, and a great time of renewal.
4. On a not so bright note… please look up two folks on Wikipedia… Yoshihiro Hattori and Vincent Chin.
5. What and how in heaven’s name do people like these go forgotten by us Asian-Americans. Injustice? Inhumanity? Dysfunction? All of it…
What you need to understand is that I’m not bitter. What you have to understand is I am very proud of being who I am. Be proud, be outspoken, be humble, be crazy, be honest… It’s all part of growth, pursuit and passion…
Be well, time for church,
ymjk
Cuckoo log:
Meds: none
Physical activity: does shopping count?
Thoughts: calm…
Let me say this people… I am watching a preview for a movie called, “How do you know”, starring Reese Witherspoon. She is a great southern gal. I’m a great southern guy… What the heck does that suppose to mean? It’s like this…
1. I spent the better part of 7 years in Atlanta, GA.
2. I am a fan… a fan of people… almost all people
3. Losing an icon, (he is retired now), like Larry King… it is a point of departure, and a great time of renewal.
4. On a not so bright note… please look up two folks on Wikipedia… Yoshihiro Hattori and Vincent Chin.
5. What and how in heaven’s name do people like these go forgotten by us Asian-Americans. Injustice? Inhumanity? Dysfunction? All of it…
What you need to understand is that I’m not bitter. What you have to understand is I am very proud of being who I am. Be proud, be outspoken, be humble, be crazy, be honest… It’s all part of growth, pursuit and passion…
Be well, time for church,
ymjk
Saturday, December 18, 2010
end of an era... and who would have guessed...?
December 18, 2010:
Today’s thoughts:
1. End of an era… Larry King is signing off… After 25 years he is done being on CNN. He sure knew how to ‘get the in’ I would love that sort of access. He was a sort of proctologist through words, and no surgery…
2. Chavez passes a law that he can make laws by decree. Can you imagine… Hey my mom cook(s),(ed) the best food in the world. I am going to make her a national hero for culinary arts.
3. Why is it so important to have “somewhere to sleep”. I have been blessed with abundance, and have never had such a problem. I think the notion of couch surfing, (www.couchsurfing.org) is a very unique and interesting way to sustain the “I need somewhere to sleep” thought.
4. It’s not funny, nor fun being or trying to be funny. It’s the perception and disconnect, pain and suffering that it inflicts that makes this position interesting.
5. I’ve got to EMP today… (Early Morning Prayer)… I love the ability to just do a ‘brain fart’ unload all my mental diarrhea through a few minutes of intense prayer/meditation. I’m not a very holy person, nor am I a very church person. I do the things that I do because I can. Not necessarily because I want to. I’m fat because I want to be fat… “I’m not fat… I’m husky”… www.fluffyguy.com.
Today’s thoughts:
1. End of an era… Larry King is signing off… After 25 years he is done being on CNN. He sure knew how to ‘get the in’ I would love that sort of access. He was a sort of proctologist through words, and no surgery…
2. Chavez passes a law that he can make laws by decree. Can you imagine… Hey my mom cook(s),(ed) the best food in the world. I am going to make her a national hero for culinary arts.
3. Why is it so important to have “somewhere to sleep”. I have been blessed with abundance, and have never had such a problem. I think the notion of couch surfing, (www.couchsurfing.org) is a very unique and interesting way to sustain the “I need somewhere to sleep” thought.
4. It’s not funny, nor fun being or trying to be funny. It’s the perception and disconnect, pain and suffering that it inflicts that makes this position interesting.
5. I’ve got to EMP today… (Early Morning Prayer)… I love the ability to just do a ‘brain fart’ unload all my mental diarrhea through a few minutes of intense prayer/meditation. I’m not a very holy person, nor am I a very church person. I do the things that I do because I can. Not necessarily because I want to. I’m fat because I want to be fat… “I’m not fat… I’m husky”… www.fluffyguy.com.
Friday, December 17, 2010
7 thoughts and quotes for the day...
December 17, 2010:
Cuckoo log:
Meds: None
Physical Activity: Minimal
Thoughts: Pretty calm, life is beautiful…
BEING VAGUE AND DISJOINTED IS SOMETHING I DO VERY WELL... BE FOREWARNED!!!
As most people may know… I’ve been very privileged most of my life… Life is good.
So how does this all work? You know, I hear people tell me stuff like…
1. I’ve worked for this so hard, and you could f**k it up… You are just out there
2. Why don’t you care? It’s because you’ve always had money
3. So what are you going to be when your father dies?
4. They stole it…
5. Just like **** (my first name) but bigger
6. Bye daddy
7. What’s your schedule for today?
Explanation of #1: Okay people… this is how each of these scenarios panned out, and happened. There is a comedian that lives one of the buildings that my family manages. He’s Mr. AM. He’s a mid or late 30’s black male. Quite honestly, if you saw him in a dark alley, most people would run. I like having “questionable” judgment when it comes to choosing the people around me. Tenants included.
Explanation of #2: A barista/friend at the neighborhood S@#$b&*(s is saying something to me. It’s about working to survive and working to make money. I refute these notions all day and every day for the fact that you can choose this not to be your fate/destiny. Yes money is a fountain of choices and a source of “the feeling of accomplishment”… but remember, most SAHM, (Stay At Home Mothers) are the most incredible people around, and they don’t get ‘paid’ for most of their efforts and stress.
Explanation of #3: My simple answer to having many blessings and living the “American Dream” is that we are all lucky. We are all blessed. My answer to this is… “be rich”… but my answer is decide to be bold/simple/generous. Wealth and riches are from within, and not just what others see/feel.
Explanation of #4: I am at my highly recommended mechanic yesterday tending to some issues on my wife’s vehicle. I told him that all of my washer fluid simply leaked out of the reservoir. After a bit of examination, it was discovered that someone stole my washer fluid pump. My washer fluid pump… what are the chances of that?
Explanation of #5: The folks around me were playing the board game “taboo”… the word to describe was “sumo wrestler”… just like “****” but fatter… everyone knew… laughs for all…
Explanation of #6: This happens when my daughter is off for school. It’s not very common that I bring her to school. But let me just say… Highly valued, and under-utilized… That is what a parent’s presence is… To all the bread winners who read this… When’s the last time you took your small child(ren) to school? Walk them… enjoy them… It’s the toughest ‘job’ in the world… but the only one worth dying for…
Explanation of #7: This is the way my boss/father/mentor/counselor calls and asks me “what the hell are you going to do today”? I think it’s a very politically correct way to check in on your grown child. I doubt that there are any seniors who read this blog, so I suppose it’s sort of a out of place thought, but I think it’s really poetic that a parent’s desire/love for their children is literally one of the strongest bonds/emotions on earth…
To this end, I would like to say… I don’t know what I will be doing for the rest of my life, let alone today. I read something this morning… I liked it… Digest this…
We can choose to be P.O.E. (planned, organized, executed) effectively. Get your ducks in order, and make whatever you wish happen. I request that this sort of methodology used everyday in schools around the world. I think it’s a basic problem solving method that really simplifies and focuses on the seriously important thoughts…
Live long, live well,
ymjk
Cuckoo log:
Meds: None
Physical Activity: Minimal
Thoughts: Pretty calm, life is beautiful…
BEING VAGUE AND DISJOINTED IS SOMETHING I DO VERY WELL... BE FOREWARNED!!!
As most people may know… I’ve been very privileged most of my life… Life is good.
So how does this all work? You know, I hear people tell me stuff like…
1. I’ve worked for this so hard, and you could f**k it up… You are just out there
2. Why don’t you care? It’s because you’ve always had money
3. So what are you going to be when your father dies?
4. They stole it…
5. Just like **** (my first name) but bigger
6. Bye daddy
7. What’s your schedule for today?
Explanation of #1: Okay people… this is how each of these scenarios panned out, and happened. There is a comedian that lives one of the buildings that my family manages. He’s Mr. AM. He’s a mid or late 30’s black male. Quite honestly, if you saw him in a dark alley, most people would run. I like having “questionable” judgment when it comes to choosing the people around me. Tenants included.
Explanation of #2: A barista/friend at the neighborhood S@#$b&*(s is saying something to me. It’s about working to survive and working to make money. I refute these notions all day and every day for the fact that you can choose this not to be your fate/destiny. Yes money is a fountain of choices and a source of “the feeling of accomplishment”… but remember, most SAHM, (Stay At Home Mothers) are the most incredible people around, and they don’t get ‘paid’ for most of their efforts and stress.
Explanation of #3: My simple answer to having many blessings and living the “American Dream” is that we are all lucky. We are all blessed. My answer to this is… “be rich”… but my answer is decide to be bold/simple/generous. Wealth and riches are from within, and not just what others see/feel.
Explanation of #4: I am at my highly recommended mechanic yesterday tending to some issues on my wife’s vehicle. I told him that all of my washer fluid simply leaked out of the reservoir. After a bit of examination, it was discovered that someone stole my washer fluid pump. My washer fluid pump… what are the chances of that?
Explanation of #5: The folks around me were playing the board game “taboo”… the word to describe was “sumo wrestler”… just like “****” but fatter… everyone knew… laughs for all…
Explanation of #6: This happens when my daughter is off for school. It’s not very common that I bring her to school. But let me just say… Highly valued, and under-utilized… That is what a parent’s presence is… To all the bread winners who read this… When’s the last time you took your small child(ren) to school? Walk them… enjoy them… It’s the toughest ‘job’ in the world… but the only one worth dying for…
Explanation of #7: This is the way my boss/father/mentor/counselor calls and asks me “what the hell are you going to do today”? I think it’s a very politically correct way to check in on your grown child. I doubt that there are any seniors who read this blog, so I suppose it’s sort of a out of place thought, but I think it’s really poetic that a parent’s desire/love for their children is literally one of the strongest bonds/emotions on earth…
To this end, I would like to say… I don’t know what I will be doing for the rest of my life, let alone today. I read something this morning… I liked it… Digest this…
We can choose to be P.O.E. (planned, organized, executed) effectively. Get your ducks in order, and make whatever you wish happen. I request that this sort of methodology used everyday in schools around the world. I think it’s a basic problem solving method that really simplifies and focuses on the seriously important thoughts…
Live long, live well,
ymjk
Blessings and trials...
Helping one person, seems like such a challenge... But helping a community, a city, a society should be deemed any easier?
Blessings and hopes for a wonderful holiday,
JK
Blessings and hopes for a wonderful holiday,
JK
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